So last night I was a bit lazy. To my credit, I had worked a full day (8:30am - 5:30pm) plus had to deal with the kids who had a 1/2 day (JJ & Mari had 1/2 days, Kaity came home around 4:30). So it was a lot for me and I couldn't get any dinner on the table. And after a full days work and kids running around all day, I really didn't feel like doing much of anything - just lay down and savor the moment that tomorrow (today) I was a "free" woman from work! And after getting a pizza pie for dinner, that's exactly what I did.
Now, I KNEW that my husband ALSO had a full day of work... but while I'm home working in the A/C all day, he was out sweating in the hot sun from 5:30am until around 7:30pm. I KNEW that he wouldn't be too happy about pizza for dinner, but I could counteract that by at least cleaning up a bit. If he came home to a beautifully tidy home, I could give him cereal for dinner and he'd be happy (uh, maybe cereal is a bit of a stretch, but you get what I'm trying to say)!! He just wants to come home from a long day to a clean home... and that's not what happened.
So when I heard the car door slam shut, announcing my husband's arrival, I braced myself for the consequences of my decision. Thank God for my husband, he didn't argue with me like I probably would've done with him. To a point, he understands that I'm 38 weeks pregnant and the fact that I had a long day... to a point. But I felt the tension and the silence that lay heavy in the house that night.
I honestly could have gathered up the kids and had them help me clean up the house a bit, but in my laziness I just didn't do it. So today I woke up feeling a bit guilty... but I know that God's grace is for me today. As I wrote yesterday, today is the beginning of my new life as stay at home mom / wife. I will not let laziness overtake me today!! My day is planned with a set of goals to accomplish (including cleaning & cooking!) and I will not let my laziness take over!
Thank God for His grace and knowing that each morning is a new day to start over in it!
Yasmin
Hi Yasmin! I found you through my blog! I'm so glad you left your site! I totally understand how you feel! I'm 36 weeks with 4 under 4 right now. I've always been able to stay home which is such a blessing! It's hard to find motivation to get the simplest of tasks done right now. My husband is also very gracious towards me, and some nights says, "Let's just order pizza!" I say, "Thank you!" I can't wait to follow you on your journey of staying home!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Gail!
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