I will never forget the first feeling I felt when the midwife first held him up to me - complete surprise! I don't know why or how it was possible to feel surprised - being that I felt him growing in me for 40 weeks and 1 day. I guess I can just say that it didn't really feel real until I actually saw him in front of me. It's odd to say that I was surprised to see my little infant after going through labor and pushing him out of me - but I really was. And then I wanted nothing more than to know he was OK and to hold him and never let go. I want to enjoy every last minute of him because I know he is our last baby - though the thought of his preciousness makes me want to have 3 more!!
I thank God every day for him and for my other three children... just like I can't imagine my life without my first three, I know can't imagine having to have lived my life without our little Samuel Elijah. I just found out today that Samuel means "God heard". And all I can say is that God did hear - He listened to my quiet prayers of having a big family and being a better mom & wife than I had been. Samuel is here and has changed my life (our lives) for the better.
I love you little Samuel and thank you God for hearing my prayers!